me: [gently touches the sleeping cat]
cat: [makes a tiny cat noise]
me: ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh nooooooooooooooooooooooooo ohh noo ohhhhh nooooooo oh no oh nooooo oh my god oh noooo
ok so bit of a rant but my studio teacher is mean and she’s not supportive and it’s gotten to the point that
- I hate practicing because I’m not good enough no matter what I do, she yells at me even if I DO practice
- I hate my instrument
- I hate myself
go listen to your favourite recordings! find your inspiration and schedule your practice. if you practice, you will make progress, and you will start producing sound YOU like and these results will come through when you play for your teacher too. it’s hard when a lot of hard work goes in but it seems to go nowhere. it also takes time, more than a few weeks. keep practicing and listening for improvement, even through the hard months ahead. don’t worry about not getting better (I find this difficult, but at least be aware of these feelings) because you will get better.
Keep working hard you lil cupcake!!